The Schizophrenics will both rule the world

I know that when in company, I have a tendancy to 'dominate'. Its not that I'm gregarious, it's more probably me trying to over compensate for my innate shyness. Every group social interaction is a constant wrestle with my psyche.

"Speak up, say something, don't just sand there like a wall flower!", hectors one part of me.
The other part is aghast. Ssshing me, begging me to not say the first thing that comes into my head. You'd never believe how blogging has been such good therapy. Some of my most outrageous posts have been written but never published. This allow my ebullient side to cut loose whilst reassuring my cautious self that no-one other than me, the nerd who runs blogger and two Lithuanian computer hackers with a poor command of English will ever know.

So it comes as something of a surprise that when someone puts the phrase "Female Dictator" (an oxymoron if ever there was one) into the search engine "Dogpile", blankpaige comes up as the sixth most relevant result!

I really need to have another talk with myself!